Hello everyone! I'm sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I didn't have much to write since life has been so unproductive for me. Which is interesting because that's what I'm writing about now.
I'm trying so hard to stay positive about my current situation. But with every day that passes, this feeling of an overwhelming sadness sticks to me and grows stronger.
Tonight, however, I'm letting go to try and get it out of my system and start anew when I wake.
So here's the downside:
I am broke. I am unemployed. I am about to return to school. I lost my car.
Here's the upside:
I have learned to respect money. I am about to return to school. I've had time to focus on myself. I have quit smoking cigarettes. I am getting a new car and I get to learn a new skill by driving a standard vehicle.
I feel like a zombie in this house.
This weekend makes me realize how alone I really felt. Which is depressing.
However, I can see how I want my life to be. I know that with a strong faith and plenty of prayers, God will make it happen.
Which is why it's hard to be negative.
;)
Because no matter how sad I may think I am, the truth is, I'm not.
Not sad in the least.
I'm not alone.
I'm not a zombie.
I'm not lazy.
I'm not a failure.
I'm always getting better and gaining new knowledge everyday.
I don't know if you noticed but I had and epiphany in the middle of writing. Every negative thought just got kicked to the curb.
I see myself happy, healthy, with a job, and making all A's in my classes.
I see my blogging and YouTube "careers" growing this year.
I see myself with my friends and family going out and having a great time frequently.
I see my life with God above me.
And I like what I see. :D
Happy 4th of July, my fellow Americans!
Be careful with those fireworks!
