Better Now

Hello everyone! I'm sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I didn't have much to write since life has been so unproductive for me. Which is interesting because that's what I'm writing about now.

I'm trying so hard to stay positive about my current situation. But with every day that passes, this feeling of an overwhelming sadness sticks to me and grows stronger.

Tonight, however, I'm letting go to try and get it out of my system and start anew when I wake.

So here's the downside:
I am broke. I am unemployed. I am about to return to school. I lost my car.

Here's the upside:
I have learned to respect money. I am about to return to school. I've had time to focus on myself. I have quit smoking cigarettes. I am getting a new car and I get to learn a new skill by driving a standard vehicle.


I feel like a zombie in this house.
This weekend makes me realize how alone I really felt. Which is depressing.

However, I can see how I want my life to be. I know that with a strong faith and plenty of prayers, God will make it happen.

Which is why it's hard to be negative.
;)
Because no matter how sad I may think I am, the truth is, I'm not.
Not sad in the least.
I'm not alone.
I'm not a zombie.
I'm not lazy.
I'm not a failure.

I'm always getting better and gaining new knowledge everyday.

I don't know if you noticed but I had and epiphany in the middle of writing. Every negative thought just got kicked to the curb.

I see myself happy, healthy, with a job, and making all A's in my classes.
I see my blogging and YouTube "careers" growing this year.
I see myself with my friends and family going out and having a great time frequently.
I see my life with God above me.

And I like what I see. :D

Happy 4th of July, my fellow Americans!
Be careful with those fireworks!

Quick update!

Okay so my spring cleaning job was a massive fail.
I started and it just seemed like I was making a bigger mess, and I also grew completely distracted and lost motivation.
Sorry guys.

But, my room was clean when my friends came. It just wasn't what I was hoping for. And after their visit, I let the mess pile up again. Then the following weekend, they made a surprise visit for a night. I haven't cleaned that quickly in a long time.
That made me finally realize what my true motivation was.
I'm tired of having to worry about my room being clean and organized.
So I'm taking today to get it together and finally suck it up and do it.

I've already started on my laundry, since it's the biggest part of the mess. I'm just taking a short break to get all of my computer time out of the way before I get back to it.

Anyway, I'll move on now.
Something new, if you know me, then you know I am currently without a car, due to the wreck I was in a few weeks ago. So all this time I've been at home, doing nothing. Now we've gotten the situation under control and I'm having to learn how to drive, this time with a standard vehicle. I've only had two lessons so far, but I'm getting better so hopefully I'll be driving again soon.

So if you guys haven't checked out my other blogs, then I really suggest you do it! I have a Beauty, Entertainment, and Personal Diet/Fitness blog. Which you can find in my profile. So don't forget to Follow those as well!

Anyway, I just wanted to tell you guys I'm sorry and that I'll have pictures posted of my room as soon as I finish tonight.
I'm trying to think of ways to move my furniture to make it more functional or more in tune with Feng Shui.

Hope you guys have a great weekend, and I'll post up again soon!

BLOGMania!

Hey guys!

So this is just a quick note for you guys. I am actually creating a few more blogs.

I have this one, which is my personal one with all of my thoughts, updates, and random things blog.

I figure I spend so much time online being completely unproductive, that it's time I channeled that into actual creative productivity.

I really do enjoy writing blogs. There's something really awesome about having your own page for other people to read. It is both educational and interesting.

I'm really excited so I'll tell you what I have planned for the near future.

(Regardless of how many people actually read these.)

Here's the list:

-Beauty blog. Which will cover everything from Makeup, Hair/Skin Care, Product Reviews, maybe some short, step by step tutorials.

-Health blog. This will be covering my ongoing battle to win the war against fat. I will be posting quite a bit of information about healthy foods, exercises, and weekly updates on my weight and progress on dropping the lbs!...

-Entertainment blog. No, your eyes did not deceive you. I am creating a blog about Games, Movies, Music, Awesome Websites to check out, and New Gadgets on the market. Be prepared, because this blog is going to rock your socks off.

Or at least give you something interesting to talk about with your friends.

So, there you have it. I have a lot of awesome posts to come and I'll post the links so you can follow them, when they are finished.

Hope you guys have a great weekend and an awesome night!

Love,

Lauren <3

Spring Cleaning.

Well, if you are a good friend of mine, then you know exactly the way I feel about cleaning.

You'll probably know what my room and car look like most of the time, as well.

I am here to let you know that I have put my foot down.

I now realize how important cleaning is and how being organized can simplify complicated parts of my life.

NO MORE will I be considered a messy/disorganized person.

So, I'm finally back with my newest blog. It's been a long time and I apologize.

I've had a hard time committing to making blogs.

Now I'm over that, too.

I have made a few small changes in my life lately, and would like to tell you all about them.

So.. Let's begin!

First things first, cleaning/organization.

I have some close friends coming to visit this weekend and I haven't seen them in a long time. So I would like to surprise them with my "new" room.

The base of my design vision is here, I just need to rearrange and get rid of the clutter to make it visible.

As some of you know, I'm a huge Alice In Wonderland fan. It has been one of my favorite stories for the longest time. And I have always wanted to incorporate that into the design of my bedroom.

By using the colors Sky Blue, Black, White, with small accents of Gold, I have been able to create just that.

However, the rebellious clutter-minded teenager has decided to strike yet again!

So I know that it is now officially Summer, but I am going to do some serious Spring Cleaning.

Not only will this room be clean, but I am going to completely remove everything I feel like I've been hoarding. I'll be rearranging furniture, and finally making my Alice in Wonderland vision, a reality.

Tomorrow is the big day. I'll be spending all of Thursday making it happen. I'll even be waking up early to get started.

If you have any comments of support and encouragement feel free to post them here or on my Facebook page.

I'll be posting Before and After pictures of my room, sometime around midnight tomorrow.

So check back for them.

If you want to know what I do for motivation, here it is...

I make a long, amazing playlist full of EPIC music.

I hit play.

Then, I bust through the door of my room with a bucket of cleaning supplies in hand.

And pretend the clutter is a bunch of zombies, and I'm playing Left 4 Dead.

Fat Bottomed Girls!

Well, welcome back. I hope you had a lovely week everyone.
I know I did.
And after all of those Halloween treats I have noticed the number on the scale has risen. And all I can think is "I'm so sick of being fat!".
It's true, I really am annoyed with myself for giving in, but I cannot give up.
I relapsed for a week or two and now it's time to get back on that horse and ride. So I've got this figured out. NO MORE EXCUSES.
The word "lazy" no long exists in my dictionary.
The time has come, and I am ready.

-I have already got myself signed up for a year at Curves gym. I love it there, it's so easy and it's never crowded. So from Monday on, I will be hitting the gym 5 days a week, Mon-Fri.
-I'll take the weekends to rest up and prepare for the next week.
-I'm cutting out all liquids except the most essential...water.
-No more sweets! No more fast food!
-I'm limiting myself to the delicious and nutritious foods.
-Protein rich meats and eggs, leafy green veggies and carrots, and low sugar fruits.

Also, my dog has been tipping the scales lately too and I think she will be joining me a few nights a week for a walk around the neighborhood.
I know she'll love that.

There is nothing more depressing than going shopping and not being able to fit into the things you want to wear. Even boots, because my calves are too wide.
:'(
It's not even about the material items, either.
It's about being healthy, having good skin, hair, and nails.
Because my vanity is stronger than the laziness that lives inside me.
I want to radiate healthiness.
haha
So, even if you're not in it to lose weight, just to get started on living a healthy lifestyle, if you'd like to join me in my journey, you're more than welcome to.

So I will keep you guys updated weekly on how things are going.

The holidays are approaching, but I can control myself ,and I'll be ready when they arrive.
Wish me luck, and GOOD LUCK to those of you who might be trying your own thing too!

The World.

Hey everyone, hope you all had a fantastic Halloween and weekend!

So, last night my good friend and I had a discussion about many things (God, the earth, money, etc.). That conversation sparked the ideas and points in this blog.


I wish we could mix living with modern technology and using the earth's good sources.
At least ten thousand times better than we are now.
Have we all forgotten what life is like without the Internet, television, or cell phones?
When we were created to survive on only water and certain food groups, why must we have created disgusting places like McDonalds and Burger King?
Why are we so lazy that we wont just go to a market and buy fresh, organic food to cook for ourselves? I think if we still have to have money in this world it should be spent on things like the healthiest food and necessities for our families, not a new Bentley and stereo system.

Why do we care so much about how we look?
Is it not enough to enjoy and take care of that which God gave us?
Is plastic surgery really going to make you feel better?
If no one in this world cared about hair and makeup, and we all had to live natural.
There would be no such thing as ugly.

There are so many things that I, too, enjoy and they are extremely useless to our existence.

I am not 100% sure, but I'm beginning to think Cancer and other diseases would have never been, had we not polluted this earth with our toxic waste.

These topics and issues are so above me I find it hard to explain exactly how I feel about them in words.
I don't want to do away with everything. If we weren't meant to have it, then we wouldn't.
But we don't have to spend so much time wrapped up in material matters.
It also angers me that I should have to have so much money to be able to travel and enjoy the world the way it was meant to be enjoyed.
Why does it cost so much to enjoy that which costs nothing?

If for one week everyone in the world could be sent to a big green area and have to figure out how to survive and create their own shelter and such...I believe the world would change at least a little after that.

Basically, you're thinking I'm a super hippy right now. But, please, think of me as more of a human being concerned for the future and well being of this Earth and it's inhabitants.

I've decided to make my point, I am going to change a few things.
And since changes in my life require baby steps, I'm going to try these for the next month.
-I'm going to spend less time indoors than I do outdoors.
-I'm going to stick to a really basic diet of all natural kinds of foods and only water, tea, and coffee to drink.
-I'm going to kick my smoking habit. I'm trying to save myself, not kill.
-I'm going to only wear as much makeup as I'm required to still be considered human.
-Instead of buying more products, I'm going to finish all that I have now.
-Should I run out, I'll consider natural alternatives (like fruits and vegetables).
-I'm going to enjoy all that I already have around me. I don't need anything else.
-I'm not going to drive even 1/2 as much as before.


I know that this will be easy for me.
But sometimes I forget things and if you're around me, don't hesitate to slap my hands if I reach for something useless to buy.






Maybe it's naive for me to think that there is still more good in this world than bad, and that I still have a lot of faith in humanity.
BUT COME ON PEOPLE. DON'T LET ME DOWN

What one change would you be willing to make to your life this month??

Halloween and the Imagination

(The title of this blog might confuse you, so I will explain.)

I've been thinking a lot lately, "What is wrong with the universe?".
Seriously, we as human beings were gifted with such amazing minds. We have the ability to create, imagine and dream up these incredible stories and ideas such as movies, books, television shows, and videos.
Disney is a perfect example. Disney has created hundreds of movies for children, and I still love them. I remember wanting so badly to be Aurora from Sleeping Beauty.
Did my wish ever come true?...

No.

Which brings me to my point. Why on earth were we given the ability to create these things, and none of it is allowed to be real? Take something simple like Santa Claus. Santa is not real. If you're reading this, then I'm sure you're old enough now to have figured that out.
(If I just spoiled Christmas for you, I apologize. Now you know how I feel.)
Seriously though, how is that fair?
You mean I am actually allowed to come up with another world where fairies and unicorns exist, but I can't actually go to it?
I just want to know what God was thinking when he decided to give us only half of the equation.
Entertainment we purchase from Best Buy and Barnes & Noble is as close as we are allowed to get to our own amazing creations.
How sick is that?
Of course I understand that without this entertainment, life would be rather boring.
But come on, magic is something everyone should be allowed to experience, even if only once.

And Halloween, isn't helping. Sure, it's one of my favorite holidays. Yes, I certainly do participate. Because, what else am I supposed to do?
For one day every year, we get to disguise ourselves and pretend we are someone or something else.
We get to escape reality for a full night.
But it isn't really escaping anything, is it?
No.
Maybe that same night, you go home. You wipe off your makeup and shower away the disguise because you still have to wake up early the next morning and go back to work
in a reality where magic and fairytales don't exist. They are only dreamed of.

And everyone wonders why we spend so much time in front of the television and computer.
TO ESCAPE. (As much as possible, anyway.)

And it angers me to no end.
I want to go to Narnia. Is that ever going to happen?
Nope.
Because there is no portal to Narnia.
There is not a talking lion (with the popularity of Jesus) that has a voice like Liam Neeson.
There are no Beavers that have British accents...

And so I return to my normal thought process.
Goodnight, everyone.